What should I do?

I know I just posted yesterday, but I feel like I need some opinions from those of you who know me BEST! I have been invited several times to join an AMAZING program called Now I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP, I received another invitation this morning. If I decide to join I would be asked to take pictures of babies and children who are dying or have died. the website is amazing, but be sure that you have a box of tissues nearby before you view it! Every time I have been asked I feel this STRONG urge to join, but i let my emotions talk me out of it. I know I would be good, because I feel like I am a compassionate person and I LOVE babies and children, but that is just the problem...Do you think it would be too hard emotionally? I am just torn. I have always been taught to share the gifts and talents that our Heavenly Father has blessed us with, I just don't know if I could handle it. What do you guys think? I have no idea how to put the link on here! www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org

Mommy is losing her patients!!!!

Can i just vent for a moment? Well, I am anyway!!!! I am so sick of my kids being sick! We have had one sick kid after another since Christmas morning! Saturday night Rachel woke up as sick as a dog, she couldn't stop coughing. Her body was burning up and she couldn't stop shaking! She hasn't stopped whining in days! I wish there is something i could do for her, if she feels anything like she looks, it's pretty darn bad. Well, last night Emily woke up and the whole entire story repeats itself! My friend called and told me that RSV is going around in our ward, Rachel & Emily have all the signs. GREAT.
I gave the lesson in Young Womens yesterday and we talked about the MANY rolls women have. The list could seriously go on forever! I am feeling overwhelmed with all the rolls I have as a mommy and wife. I haven't had sleep in days, my house is a bomb,I need to get to the grocery store to figure out dinners for the week, the sickies are in constant need of their "mama", but I only have two arms! Paul has been so helpful this weekend, but unfortunately he can't stay home from work, and there must just be something special about a mommy's touch, they seem to want only me.
Well, last night when our show was interupted with BREAKING NEWS about dear Pres. Hinckley, I was so sad. I have always adored him! I didn't realize how sad Zach was until he said his prayer. This is what he said....
" Please bless Pres. Hinckley and all of his helpers...oh wait!!!! He died." Then he burst into tears again! What a sweet little boy. I hope he will always have a tender heart. I explained to him that Pres. Hinckley is happy and so glad to see his wife. I think that helped a little.
I will stop the rambling for now! I did want to thank you all for all the sweet comments you leave on my blog! It always makes my day and keeps me wanting to continue my photography - especially when I feel like giving up! {{{{hugs}}}

Happiness is...

A SQUISHY little peanut! Thats just what she was! I just wanted to squeeze her!

SNOW ANYONE????

Well, I really need to go get some things done today, but it has been snowing since last night and hasn't let up! I really hate to admit this, but I don't own a pair of snow boots - I hate snow! Paul always snow blows the driveway and sidewalks (not to mention everyone elses too!) I have NO IDEA how to even start the snow blower - the thought of it severely stresses me out!:) I am trying to muster up the energy to head out there and do it by hand! I think My neighbors will die of shock if they see ME out there shoveling!!!! Maybe I will come across my muffin tins while I am at it! This was my conversation with Zach about my missing muffin tins!
ME: " Do you know where my muffin Tins are?"

Zach: "UMMMMM... Maybe they are under all the snow!!!!"

ME: "WHY would they be in the snow?"

Zach " I don't know, maybe they make good snow toys."

Sounds a bit guilty yo me!:)

Anyway, I guess if I want to get the van out of the driveway anytime soon, I had best get a shovelin!

Some one to look up to....

My cousins sent us a DVD the other day with pictures of my Grandma and Grandpa's life. It was an amazing slide show! I loved seeing how beautiful my Grandma was at my age and how Glamorous that generation was! Zach's favorite part are the pictures of Grandpa as an "ARMY GUY" - he is now dressing like him! He has me read the little war stories that go along with the pictures! We have watched the DVD about 20 times and yet, they are still acting as if it is their first time seeing it! Zach wrote this letter to his Grandpa and we put it in the mail today! I thought it was so cute!
Incase you can't read Kindergarten handwriting it it says....
HI! like your army pictures. I am glad you stayed safe.
I (heart) you
Zach

OH! Paul thinks he did alright on his test - all these years of playing video games really paid off! He had to fly airplanes on a computer screen - he proudly announced
that he only crashed 4 planes - GREAT!!!!:) Is that really something to be proud of????!!!!!:)

Say a little prayer !

Today is the day we have been waiting for for about a year! It's finally Paul's turn to
Take his Air Traffic Control Test! He has been on the waiting list for about a year now, and it all comes down to today! It is an 8 hour Test! He feels so much pressure because this is his only shot at it - they won't hire anyone over 30 years old! I am so glad that he's taking it and not me - I KNOW I WOULD FAIL!:) Anyway, I have been praying all morning for him! Any extra prayers are welcome!:)

you know it's time for a vacation when....

You know it's time for a vacation when your kids starting "playing vacation" - yup, it's a real game, just ask my kids! All I have heard about for the past few months is, "When are we going to go to Florida again?" I can't even believe that they even remember doing that! Zach is DYING to see his nana & Pop-pop, but will not stop talking about his cousin Kaity! He is convinced that she lives ON the beach! Well, yesterday I had to go check on them because they were unusually quiet! they were all 3 up on Zach's bed playing vacation. Zach's bed was the airplane and I was even invited to go along with them! It was so funny, but it made me feel sad for them at the same time - they miss them so much!

This is just a random old picture of emily that I came across today, I had to laugh that her eyes were two different sizes! I had to go find her and check them today to see if they are really that way and I just never noticed - they aren't!:)